"This painting was born from a radical change in my life, a transition imposed by harsh circumstances and the lack of a family home. Caught between memories, some oppressive, of my birthplace, where my existence was tempered, and the desire to move on..., I chose to make a change. But life carried me, ironically, from one trap to another, from "lake to well" settling temporarily in an area forgotten by the world...
This transition, which I initially saw as a temporary refuge from a difficult period in my life, turned into a true exile. The misfortune of fate threw me straight into exile, without me realizing it for a moment. A twilight area, deserted by souls, at the crossroads of times and roads that would be a school and an exile, for 3 years. Alone in the midst of a wild nature, which is constantly unleashed with a volcanic force, I felt that this fury of nature actually mirrors my own art that I create.
Fate sometimes seems to test my limits, my resistance and my existence..., as if there were a hidden reason behind these tests. I have not yet fully discovered it, but this stage of life forced me to seek answers. And so, the proximity to the unleashed nature offered me something unexpected - a process of inner rediscovery.
I learned a lot with this somewhat forced change, and the proximity to the unleashed fury of nature helped me find myself somehow. This temporary and unintentional exile turned out to be the best place for healing - a real hospital of the soul, capable of curing psychoses, neuroses and much more. Nature, the one that once pushed me to the brink of death in a terrible winter..., at the same time opened the door to a new rebirth for me. As it has a habit, nature eliminates everything that no longer works and revitalizes what still has value, probably.
The same process happened in me. Going through a clinical death, caused not only by the extreme conditions, but also by other factors that brought me to the brink of extinction, I understood that the paradox of life is profound: nature, the one that brought me so close to death, was also the one that brought me back to life and helped me find my balance.
In order to escape from the urban jungle and find myself in a completely new environment – the (extreme...) rural life, wild, that I did not know, but that I always felt was part of me – I needed this spontaneous and harsh school, a radical reset through a clinical death. I have the feeling that, in order to make the transition from an absolute and exclusive urban life to a simple, authentic one free from hypocrisy, falsehood and everyday social misery, you must first know not only the force of nature, but also become part of it, become its ally. Nature cleanses you, purifies your spirit and psyche, whether you want it or not. Life in such an environment does not deform you, but brings you back to your essence, to your roots. A real closeness to nature can only happen when you have a clean spirit and a psyche in harmony with it. The symbiosis between man and wild nature is much more complex than it seems, and the real wild beasts are not in the forests or on the mountaintops, but in the urban environment, where I was once forced to believe that normality was.
Liberation from this sick society called “Bucharest” – the place where I was born, but which stole my childhood and any notion of a “family home” – was, in the end, the path to adopting a new home: the arms of nature. But this transition demanded a price. A complete reset, imposed by nature itself, which I only later managed to truly understand. Nature, one of my great loves since childhood and an inexhaustible source of inspiration for my creations, has today become what I dreamed of since childhood: my home, my family, the childhood I never had, my life in all its forms. Here I find inspiration, peace of mind and perpetual cleansing of the mind, so that I can create freely and give my works not only form, but also a story, a deep meaning from a universe of truly unique thoughts, ideas and states.
This unintentional exile turned out to be the best place for healing. Here I discovered that in order to truly understand what it means to “have everything”, you must first learn what it is like to have nothing. And vice versa — that sometimes, the apparent lack is what essentially gives you everything. Or, to put it simply, here, I learned what it means to have everything, having nothing... and at the same time, to have nothing anymore... actually having everything...
The painting represents a landscape near the house where I went through this intense period. It is a place I saw often, but here I captured it in a state of storm, a moment that awakened strong emotions and deep feelings in me. This scene became the symbol of my passage through this area of the world and this stage of existence, which is why I felt the need to immortalize it.”